My dear PERSONAL PROBLEMS,
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I don’t have anxiety like my brother. I am not struggling with weight problems like some of my friends. Everybody that matters to me is completely okay with my sexuality (well, okay, it took some time for myself and I am still a complete mess on dates with women but that’s another story). I’ve never experienced any form of discrimination, I am a white girl without any religion. I am 23 years old and finally have the feeling to have arrived in life since I have completely changed the course of my life from my IT bachelor towards the film business. I know I have a long way to go to be a script writer but I believe in my dreams and know I am on the right path. I am creative, I am sporty and I am really good in most things that I do (I hope that doesn’t sound too pretentious). I have the best friends. I love my family. I don’t have money worries. Nobody close to me has died so far.
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So… Why the hell are YOU complaining?
“I hate my knee for sometimes not letting my give 100% on the sport field.”
“Why are you so shy in some situations?! Why aren’t you more like Pauli? More self-confident. Don’t think so much, just do it!”
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“My flatmate ate my last cookie! Again!!!”
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“I am tired, I have a headache and I don’t want to go to work…”
“Why haven’t I had a relationship so far? Is it because of me?”
“It’s so unfair! Why can’t I sing?!”
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I know people have way bigger and worse problems than YOU and I sometimes feel ashamed of YOU, of how irrelevant and ridiculous YOU, MY PERSONAL PROBLEMS, are.I should be having a perfect life, so why doesn’t it feel like it? I have always felt a restlessness – it’s a weird feeling to know what you want from life and to not know it at all at the same time. But still… that’s not a good reason for YOU to complain!
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Some months ago, I read a book from Robert McKee, in which he says that “while the quality of conflict in life changes as it shifts from level to level, the quantity of conflict is constant. When we remove conflict from one level of life, it amplifies ten times over on another level.” (Robert McKee, Story: Substance, Structure, Style, and the Principles of Screenwriting).
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This quote and the fact that the representation of the perfect life of celebrities on social media is changing, made it clear to me that nobody has a perfect life, everybody has their problems. And that it is okay to have YOU and to feel like YOU are important, even though MY PERSONAL FEELINGS are nothing in a global objective perspective.
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Over the last months I also started to do Yoga and meditation and it helped me a great deal in many aspects of my life – among other things: To accept the quantity of YOU and to value the quality of YOU. Your feelings are subjective. Your thoughts can be objective.
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So, MY DEAR PROBLEMS, in a nutshell: YOU have a raison d’être (I honestly don’t know if this is the correct English word since German is my mother tongue and every dictionary says something different) – don’t listen to me if I tell YOU the next time to shut up.
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Your proud (but still a little bit annoyed) OWNER

ANNA