I have to believe I’m good enough.
Not sure what the enough is to
Am I comparing that he is better and I’m trying to be good enough for him?
Why is he the thing to have my sights on?
He makes me feel less than but I am staying, so, I am choosing
To be less than him.
This is a comfortable position to be in.
Maybe because I can’t see myself the way others do.
Maybe because I think I won’t get any better.
Maybe because the excitement of just one glance, is enough
To keep me, to hold me, to make me stay.
I love him and I need him.
I know he doesn’t need me.
There’s a part of me that knows I am better than him and better than this.
But why is this a “less than game”?
Maybe I like that because it always will keep me wanting more
I will always be proven right. I will always prove to myself that I have to try.
It’s hard to love myself. It’s hard to see myself.
And I know he will never see me.
That will never be enough.
-Anonymous