Look for the Light
Dear September,
As I got older and friends married, had their first child, and then their second, I was still single. Dating was a game I frequently played, but never seemed to win, no matter how much I wanted. Then I met someone. At the beginning, he seemed kind, funny, and full of love for me. I got swept up in this new relationship and lost myself along the way. He was insecure and I was the one who suffered. Things slowly worsened, yet I stayed. Loneliness crept in, but I kept my unhealthy relationship a secret. The mental manipulation and emotional abuse took their toll and I started having frequent panic attacks. Staying home became a way of life, as the constant panic was too overwhelming. I would cry and shake uncontrollably for hours, unable to calm my body and mind. After a fight one day, suddenly, everything became clear – he, and our relationship, was filled with so much darkness and I needed to break free from this destructive dynamic. I had done all I could to try to fix what was broken, but things were irretrievably damaged. After ending our relationship, I focused on self-healing and slowly, the panic attacks faded into the background. I still hope to find my true partner, but know that my well-being and happiness are the priorities. Never again will I settle for less than I deserve, let anyone treat me poorly, or allow someone else’s demons to cause me so much pain. For anyone struggling in an unhealthy relationship, I promise it is not worth it and not only are you strong enough to walk away, but you will heal and feel so much more empowered. Never let darkness consume your life; always look for the light.
From,
Anonymous
One Response
This was really beautiful, I’ll keep my fingers crossed the next person you meet is as lovely as you.