Opening up is hard, really hard and mostly scary!
Each time someone asks you “how are you ?” The answer is always “fine” .
Never telling the truth to someone… how you really feel , what you really think !
Sometimes i would ask the clock to stop for a brief moment , to think about each step i take . Can’t do .
Opening up about feelings is hard and a emotional slap in the face , but once you can ! Even to yourself you’ll find peace in yourself and you’ll think more clearly.
Trust is hard ! But if you can’t trust yourself, then you can’t trust anyone.
I started to trust myself -> because I stopped thinking about what others thought of me , i stopped thinking about the negativity that it brought me . I sat in my room for 6 hours without phone just lights on and face to the ceiling, thinking about who i was and how I’m put together.
I thought who i was because of others people judgements. And then i found myself because I looked farther then what they said . And I didn’t react the same way anymore to them and in my mind ! I found a part of myself just because I thought about myself literally!
Love is hard . it’s easy to love someone else , yourself not so easy .
Several depressions later i still didn’t love myself. How could i ? How could someone else?
Everyday feeling so small because of the lost love and it hurts. One person came into my life and it was all I needed then . They loved me , saw through my walls. Then they left .
So I started to try and love myself because I knew that was the love that would last longer then the love from someone else. Talking to myself everyday, writing post-it’s hanging them everywhere . Until i would think it before i could read them
Message to all of the people on this !!
You’re loved even if it’s not self love
You’ll go through hard parts in you’re life but you have to keep you’re head up ! Never give up ! You’re strong and beautiful in every way ! What happened or is happening will not be you’re life forever, you’ll find you’re way to happiness and you’ll get through it because you’re super strong !!!!