Im a 12 year old girl who lives in Chicago.When I was little,my mom told me that I was basically like a kid from a Disney show,happy 24/7,what can go wrong?everything.I realised I was bisexual when I was 11,if you think about it from a point of view that isn’t mine..then yeah,I had it good.A loving family,a gay aunt who knew what I could be going through,a cat.But just like any other puzzle that is in the same house as an 5 year old kid..I had missing pieces,don’t we all?Are my missing pieces important enough for people to realise?Am I enough to be realised?heard?Well,based on how my mom cuts we off when I try to talk about what I feel..I’d say no.I have a 15 year old half sister who i basically haven’t seen since i was 8,I have her number,but she barely ever talks to me,my dad never tried getting us together.Hell!i practically stoll her number from his phone!I thought i needed her to solve my puzzle,to feel complete,but i don’t,does she even love me?Is she right to not?I don’t know the answer to the question,im scared to try to find out if she does..but im only 12,there is only so little i can do,i already feel so small..what if she justs rejects me away?What if she says she loves me then walks off like the one friend I had who i told all my deepest secrets to?What if she just jokes around with the fact of me being bisexual just like everyone else in my grade?What if she just drinks too much to the point she doesn’t remember who i am just hits me just like my mom?what if she finds out about my bad side and she tells me to sit my ass down and questions my every move like my dad?what if she connects with me and moves an hour away from me like my aunt and her wife did?There too many bad things that can happen to the point where they make me forget about the good things that can happen.i already feel so small as a 12 year old girl alone..what if this final step just proves it all?I don’t matter.No matter how many times i fall,no matter how many times i hurt,i always get back up to fight and help the ones that hurt me…but never for me..why is that?I know that i probably answered none of your questions..but i just think it’s important for people that are looking at September letters,regardless if your looking for comfort or someone to make fun of…someone in this world will find you and make you feel so much love.i know it might take a really long time,but we have to stay fighting long enough until we find our person who makes us feel loved,regardless if it’s a friend or lover.there will be someone..that is my small amount of hope i will forever hold on to.For those incomplete puzzles…i hope you find the pieces you need to be complete,it might take 50 years,but we must keep trying so one day we can tell our selfs…we did it..we made it..we fought and will always have to fight…but im now complete.I know you might think i don’t know what im saying because im only 12 and are incomplete.you might be right..but you just have to hope for the best,because without hope,what do we have?.Thank you for finding this letter.
Love,
Your 12-year-old girl.