My Best Friend: From Anonymous

In this moment I’m grateful for my bestfriend. She means the world to me saved me when I was at my lowest time in my life. She is here when I need her, even when she isn’t okay she is making time for me. I love her more than everything she is like a sister to me and I can’t imagine the world without her.
I just turned 19.Before 5 years I went through something I don’t like saying words but I have to say the truth here so it can be understandable. I was abused by my boyfriend I was 14 years old he was two years older started high school we knew each other since we were babies. That was really hard for me and never asked for help never told my parents I didn’t have friends at the time. I started cutting and wanted to end my life. So half year after I was convinced that my life had no point anymore that I would never get any better. That will sound dramatic but I wrote letters to my close people and I wanted to like leave so I was about to turn my phone off. Then I heard a sound coming from it and it was a hi from an old app and that’s how I met my bestfriend and that night she saved me in every way and I will never forget anything she has done for me to get here. A year ago when I got worse I started losing weight I always had problems with food and how I looked but she is helping me now. Tommorow I have a therapy appointment and I’m very nervous. Cause I never talked about anything to anyone other than her. But things that helped me all this time to keep going were definitely talking to her. Drawing even if it doesn’t make sense to others draw what you feel. Listen to music that you relate to and sing with it and don’t care if anyone will listen. Do things that help you or like doing hobbies like cooking or sports spend time with who you like doing what you like. It’s hard and some days it feels like they won’t even pass but I promise it will get better. It got better for me it got worse again but as long as you don’t give up you will see more and more things that will make you want to stay.
If I could say something to myself young self would be that you shouldn’t be ashamed and this isn’t something to be ashamed of. That you survived a lot and you are strong enough to do more things in future
No one should give up. And during this hard times we should all be there for each other or no one can do it alone